I'm 20 and I used to feel like I had all the confidence in the world. I had loads of friends and girlfriends and I was really happy. But when I hit 18 it all just seemed to go downhill. I started to get really paranoid about people looking at me and hate leaving the house. I even started to walk differently and I just can't stop it - why is this?
Even my mum says I'm weird because I bathe more than once a day. I do it because I feel dirty just walking past other people in the street. I try to hide it when I go out with family or friends and I try not to go out with them at all. I do want to go out, I just don't want to be seen.
It's got so bad that I want to kill myself, not that I think I could go through with it but I still think it. I hate myself. What's wrong with me? Why can't I get over it? Can anyone help me?
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