My parents and my siblings are always physically pushing me around, which really hurts. They also belittle me and call me names. To try and calm myself down I've tried smoking, drugs, drinking and self-harming. I've also run away and have even thought about suicide. I hate my family and I don't want to live with them. Is there anything I can do?
Being bullied by your family sounds hurtful and upsetting and it's clearly making you very unhappy, to the point where you have run away and thought about suicide. Although smoking, drugs, alcohol and self harm may provide temporary relief from the emotional pain and frustration you're feeling, it's important to consider the impact using these things can have on your physical health and wellbeing.
Self-harm is often a way for people to cope with and get through difficult emotions or situations. It may be a way of releasing painful emotions such as rage, sadness, emptiness, guilt or fear. There are lots of organisations specialising in confidential support in this area, such as the National Self-Harm Network.
If you're thinking of moving out, Shelterline provides advice about seeking independent accommodation, including the options of emergency accommodation for people who are experiencing any form of threatening, violent or abusive behaviour in their home.
It may be a good idea to make an appointment to see your doctor (GP). They will be able to help you explore the options available to you, such as counselling, to help you through this difficult time. Or you could try contacting Youth Access if you wished to seek this form of support independently.
People often find talking with trusted friends and family about their feelings can help them. This may also give them a better insight into the situation, helping them to offer more effective support and understanding. If you feel uncomfortable doing this, you could try talking to a volunteer at Saneline. The helpline (0845 767 8000) is available to anyone experiencing a mental health issue. Samaritans is available 24 hours a day on 08457 90 90 90. Alternatively, SupportLine provides emotional support, information and advice for young people on 020 8554 9004 or by email. Both services are completely confidential.
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